Oh Sleeper- Charlatan's Host.

I'm currently spending my quiet times in my bible looking through the life of Paul the Apostle. His testimony was so crazy, going from a persecuter of Christians, to one of the founding fathers of the Church. God used him for so much of His good, and Paul's words in the letters he wrote are ever important to our everyday lives. I started in the book of Acts, reading about Paul's transformation from Saul to Paul the Apostle. It is inspiring to read Paul's story and to go through His life and the teachings of his life. If God could use a slime ball like Saul and make him arguably the most dedicated and well known apostle of the bible, what does that mean He could do for you or me?

Matt and I are interested in different kinds of music. I like more chill songs, love the raw voices; Matt likes screamo... A lot. I personally don't understand why the singer would scream the lyrics if he has such a pretty voice I know he has. But what I have found, is that it's a good thing that Matt likes it. If he didn't, there would be lyrics I would never know about that are so amazing and thought provoking.

Below I have copied the Lyrics to one of Matt's favorite songs. He showed me these lyrics and they blew my mind. If I would have listened to the song, i never would have heard what this really is saying. Thank God for my amazing man. Teaching me little by little every day.

The lyrics are Paul talking about himself, not realizing so until God points it very clearly out. Paul looking at who he was is so disgusted he asks God how he could have forgiven him. Why he let him kill so many of his children, and God's response is "I love you." This song is such an insightful look into the heart and regret of Paul and of God's amazing grace bestowed upon us.

Thank you God for using even the worst of us to be used for your Great Will. Amen.

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Charlatan's Host

by Oh Sleeper

"Sleep takes its hold with a sinking pull. And now that I'm alone, this burst of light
fills my lids and I'm awake to the songs of horror. Your ill-bought greatness, he's seen it all from the frame.
One day you'll reap the seeds of a shadowed past, and I can only hope I'm there.

You tried to satisfy the thirst of a thousand ages,
But built a stack of bones as your monument to dead vanity.
It's just a shrine to the words you use to wreck. Tell me, How can you sleep?
How can you just welcome the wine and throw out your nets?
You throw out your nets and set fame to bait the noose. Set fame to derail whats innocent.

Why spare the life of inglorious waste? Why let him live?
He's just hunting your own! How can you just sit there and watch?
"Because i love you more than you know. Look again and tell me what you see!"

In the window was me. The massacres were all me!
Oh God, please! Please! deliver the penalties for all of this from me.
I'm not finding justice, no warrant for mercy...
don't give up on me. Don't give up on me!
What happens when I turn and run again? And again, and again?

"I will forgive you."

And what happens when I lie to your face?

"I will forgive you."

Oh my God, I can be so defiant to some one who's arms stretch to me.

"I will forgive."

Don't give up on me! Don't give up on me!

"I have forgiven you!"

I'll awake to new purpose to fight this body.
No longer will I play the dark shepherd.
Let not my words be ripped from the throat of a horror.
Oh, forgiver! Where is justice in letting me live?"

<3 Austin.